Wow. I managed to capture the seven minutes worth of the most pathetic moments of my entire life on camera. This was like watching a pelican trying to swallow several crows and then almost choking to death on them. Or like someone with a chronic illness realizing that their world has become incredibly small and lonely. Watch at your own risk.
This has probably been the most heavily debated content I’ve decided to share on this blog. Which is saying something, because I have a bowel disorder, so I’d say we’re pretty close at this point in the game.
This was a moment of…absolute desperation? Sadness? Realization?
I don’t know. But it was definitely a moment. And I cringed at the thought of my family and basically anyone who did not also have a chronic illness watching it. But after sharing it with a few other patients I decided that the need for other patients to know they’re not alone in the trenches was maybe more important than my personal dignity.
Personal dignity is overrated.